ITS TIME... GET UP!!!!!!!

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TODAY IS ONE OF THOSE DAYS, I'M FEELING FRUSTRATED & OVERWHELMED... I'M HAPPY TO BE HOME SEEING THAT I HAVE BEEN AWAY AND IN THE HOSPITAL FOR OVER A YEAR AND FROM WHAT I HEAR FROM MY FAMILY THEY DIDN'T KNOW IF I WAS GOING TO MAKE IT. I'M TIRED OF BEING CONFINED TO A WHEELCHAIR & HAVING LIMITED ACCESS TO GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE I'M READY TO GET UP AND GO. SOMETIMES I FEEL GUILTY FOR FEELING LIKE THIS BECAUSE I KNOW I AM BLESSED TO BE ALIVE BUT I'M STILL HUMAN AND I'M STILL YOUNG & VIBRANT, I WANT TO GET UP, GET OUT AND GO! I WANT TO DO THINGS ON MY OWN, SIMPLE THINGS LIKE SHOPPING, GOING TO GET MY NAILS DONE, TAKING MY DOG FOR A WALK IN THE PARK,DOING THE GIRLFRIEND TRIPS, HIT THE OPEN MIC SPOTS & ETC...
I KNOW GOD HAS TRULY BLESSED ME AND WHEN I HAVE THESE MOMENTS I PRAY BUT TODAY I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO SHAKE IT, I KNOW THIS MOMENT WILL PASS BUT IT DOESN'T CHANGE THE FACT THAT I'M TIRED OF BEING IN THIS WHEELCHAIR ITS TRULY TIME FOR ME TO GET UP AND WALK!!!!!!!!!!!!

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